About Me-Janice’s Anxiety
I don’t know what to say, and that is not a good way for a blogger to start a new Post. It doesn’t exactly instill confidence that exciting things are to come. But the title of this post is About Me-Janice’s Anxiety.
I am Janice Fox-Henley and I will tell you as plainly as I can about Janice’s Anxiety. I will write of how it ruled my life for fifty years, and then of how I broke free of it’s worst clutches.
Sometimes I don’t even want to think on the sixty-seven years dominated by anxiety’s grip. On the other hand, I am so blessed to be in control of my life now, much more than I was! Although I will more than likely always deal with a cloud of anxiety, it is so much better!
Janice’s Anxiety-First Anxiety Attack
At age five, Janice’s Anxiety showed up with my first remembered anxiety attack. All my kindergarten teacher asked me to do was show my toy and tell about it. Yes, it was my introduction to public speaking! To keep a long story short, I couldn’t do it!
Thirty-four years later I would have a physician put a name to what had happened to me when I was five. Social Anxiety Disorder with anxiety and panic attacks was the diagnosis he gave to me. With Bipolar and Severe Depression, the report was complete.
Anxiety would cripple my ability to do everything from Book Reports, to Class Presentations, even to trying out for extracurricular activities in school.
Success From Janice’s Anxiety
In July 2018, I found CBD oil, tried it, and got a physical measure of relief! With this success, I went forward and found Barry Joe McDonagh’s program PanicAway.
The PanicAway program helped me adjust my way of thinking, successfully as years of psychiatry had not done.
Depression Is Not A Friendly Emotion
During the Fall of the year I became nine years old, depression settled heavily on my young head. I know this is how old I was because we lived close to an old cemetery and I would walk the rows of the graves.
Crying because I am so angry the dead people get to be dead, it doesn’t seem fair at all!
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To a greater or lesser degree, with other mitigating factors, I felt like this for fifty-four years! During this time I married and we raised two healthy well-adjusted people, a miracle isn’t it?
For the last fifteen years I have lived without Depression, for in 2004 after a prolonged bout with Bipolar Mania, I was no longer depressed! Now, this is on my mind today this day in June 2019, because I sense Depression starting.
I am not sure how to handle this? First, I will make sure I am taking my medications correctly and on time.
I will more post later………It has been two days. I am ready to write.
Depression and Anxiety-Mania
If I put a touch of Bipolar Mania with Bipolar Depression, I have Agitated Depression. This is not a comfortable or easy to explain to someone else, state of mind.
Besides this Type of Depression, I have had to cope with two other Types of Depression at different times.
First, I lived under the painful Severe Depression that comes with Suicidal Ideations and leaves you lost in a dark bottomless hole unable to think. This Type of Depression requires medication and a medical practitioner to diagnose and prescribe. Usually, bloodwork has to be done on a regular basis to monitor the medication.
Second, I did deal with the Depression that comes from accumulated problems, like financial difficulties, or the inability to perform in school like everyone else. This Type of Depression is predominantly tied to circumstances. Sometimes medication can help, either way, a competent medical professional is needed to diagnose.
Therapy can usually help this person more than anything else. If there is a need to rethink the way of accomplishing tasks, then with a guide to help, one may find answers.
Coming with first waking thought is the need to work. I am so weak and tired due to the Myasthenia Gravis, but I feel such pressure to finish my work! There is so very much to do and so little time!
This situation leads me to experience Depression almost taking away the joy in the work, and for me, there is joy in my work! If you have Depression do not lose your joy! Claim joy daily, hour by hour if necessary!
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